I’m tired

I have good days and bad days and I’m tired.

I don’t want to have “good days” anymore or bad ones either.

I’m so tired.

I just want days.

But nobody understands that.

They just say “It will get better.” Like getting better in the future is enough.

I want to be better right now.

I don’t want to be happy and think “This is it. I’m finally getting better.”

Then the next day be so low that I just want to cry and wonder what it it’s all worth.

I just want to get lost in the forest and runaway.

Because I’m tired.

I’m just so tired.